The Codependent Narcissist Dysfunctional Dance

Thank you for reading this.  I'm opening and presenting this topic that I hold very dear to my heart.

I used to be very deep in being in a codependent mentally onto others that literally was suffocating.  Until I realized at one point in my life that I had money and no one was around me.

I’m not avoiding or denying my issues but with opening up and being real, it does help me grow. 

Come out and be honest with yourself is my life right now.  Before it’s too late to change.  Get out of my monkey  mind by understanding the truth to why I need validation, attention and value of worth within someone else and not myself first and foremost.

I have to be more honest and stop being in denial.  So by putting my life out there for others to see and read my thoughts, I wanted to write about this.   Maybe you're dealing with things in your life that you don't want to accept because someone else told you what you wanted to hear.  You should accept yourself, trust your intuition and rely on your instincts and that your real true thoughts are actual facts you hold true are what matters most. 

The codependent nature I had had to get over was cutting off the need to find someone to take care of me so I felt safe.  I’m so strong in believing I can take care of myself and it is my own worth, value and beliefs that are building my foundation to grow exponentially.  I plan to take a few trips solo to ward this fear off slowly but surely.  

No one wants to be with someone who drains your energy and makes you feel sucked dry.  But we all don't want to be alone and need someone in our lives that love and care about us.  But sometimes we need others attention so bad that without knowing how codependency works only later to find that the situation is out of control. 

I want you to take the old selfish behaviors that I used to have of being obsessed with needing someone to take care of me and have the constant need to make money. 

I want to take my story of being obsessively needy for attention from people and relate it in a way for yourself to see something you know isn't right.  We are not perfect.  

 Until I recognized this patter and broke away from it entirely then no matter what the cycle perpetuates.  Please share with someone you know could be awakened by this.

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