I can be so overly dramatic!

Gosh being on meal prep is so hard!

You get really tired, lose your train of thought very easily and most of all get really over emotional.  No wonder it is call "Competition Brain" or something like that.  Anyhow here is a picture with my Fitness Sisters and Posing Coach after posing practice at the TruFusion Eastern location.  Our posing coach (above) Denise Dinger aka The Posing Coach is such an amazing mentor to have and even has her own energy bar line out.  Her coaching makes me feel so comfortable and I've never had a trainer like this before so it is a real treat to have the best of the best.

During meal prep, I need to remember to take everything in life a little bit slower and give myself time to be easy on myself.  You see, every time I have a workout with my workout family I make sure that I try my best to take the time to say hello to everyone.  Today one of the girls in particular I felt that she wasn't acknowledging me when I said hello and it had seemed very obvious to me that she had been brushing me for like the 4th time.  I really took this personal since we are competing together and have trained for well over 7 months now and I wanted to really squash this matter in the butt before it got under my skin even further.

I was all stirred up over nothing and I could feel myself getting worked up more the more I wanted to get to the bottom of this situation.  I mean, not everyone can like me and even so, why do I try so hard to have everyone like me in the first place?  I shouldn't have to impress everyone when the only one I'm here to impress going to the gym to train is myself.  I had the girls # so I thought, should I call her about this?  No.  I'll wait till we get to posing practice later and I see her in person and get a further reading on this.

When I saw her later that day I could tell that she was tired and stressed but friendly to me.  Which also put me in a perplexed matter that confused me in the same sense.  I just brushed it off until later when I did actually get to ask her politely if anything was wrong and if there was something that bothered her about me.  She was seriously confused and shook her head with disbelief and was astonished that I asked that question as I could tell she wan't brushing me off anymore but giving me gratification that she actually did appreciate me.  With whatever pre-misconceptions I obviously exploded out of my buttonhole and took too personal for no apparent reason, that matter was squashed, done.
But I did realize that my over emotional state of wanting to take things too personal was a eye opener that I need to stop taking everyone and everything so personal.

I realized that I obviously take too much time to over analyze situations with everything around me when honestly I shouldn't even bother taking it personal and enjoy more being in the moment.  When someone is having a bad day, don't make that an excuse for me to ride the poo poo train also.  Especially when their in prep mode for a competition as well as I am and both our emotions are on a reactor chain full blown overload tilt right now so the best thing to do is be more supportive and less stressed.

So I thought I would write this blog just to tell the short tale of what I learned today about needing to take a chill pill and not think so much.  Also to not being so hard on myself or others in being overly dramatic and taking things too far when I really should just go with the flow in situations more and understand that people have down days too just like me and understand that taking things too personal is doing more harm on myself.